Beastmomma

1. There is absolutely NO way you can get me to give up chocolate completely!
2. Natural Light until 8:00 p.m.  reminds me that summer is almost here!
3. I cannot live without my contact lenses.
4. Growing my own herb garden and making pancakes from scratch are two things I'd like to try.
5. When life hands you lemons run them through your garbage disposal for a fresh scent.
6. Eating fruit with my dad is one of my favorite childhood memory.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to enjoying not having exams, tomorrow my plans include celebrating being out of school by going on a chocolate tour and attending a cheese festival and Sunday, I want to recover from all the chocolate and cheese I ate on Saturday!

I just turned in my LAST PAPER for this semester.  Assuming that I did not fail any of my classes, I am officially finished with my second year of law school!  I am in shock; every moment that I am in law school, I feel out of place and on the verge of getting rejected.  When I look at law school as a whole, I see examples of my non-failure.  My insecurities are magnified and come out in full force during exam period.  I do not really like myself very much; I get lost in the stress shuffle. I feel isolated and alone in the dark cave of finals.  It feels like there is not much source of warmth or light. << That sounds dramatic, but law creates drama-- just your local television listings if you do not believe me :)

One of the things I try to do to center myself when I am having trouble falling asleep (although, I have been known to do this right before an exam as well) is to start the sentence, "Even if I fail this exam [or other worst case scenario], I am still incredibly blessed because....." Given the stress of these last few weeks, I have used this technique many times. Many items pop into my brain and I would bore you if I listed everything here.

Tonight, I am going to adjust the prompt and make it, "I am grateful for..." and I will think of this:

Around 7:30 p.m. PST

Partner to-be: I am calling now because I am going to bed, but give me a ring when you turn in your paper because I want to be the first person to congratulate you.

11:46 p.m. PST

Me: I FINISHED!!!

Him: Hooray!! I am so proud of you.

Me: I love you so much; I could not have done it without you.

Him: That is nice to hear. You help me achieve more than I think possible too.

I know that it sounds cheesy and goofy, but sometimes I cannot stop smiling when I think that I have someone who requests to be woken up when I finish something that is important to me.   Of course, I know that there are others cheering for me and providing support as well.  However, this exchange just happened a few minutes ago.

I just posted a meme about childhood reading in my reading list section. It would be fun to hear what people read as kids.  You can find the entry here.