Beastmomma

Something was missing at the end of my day yesterday and I realized that I had not posted a new entry on the blog. Largely, this had to do with not having anything interesting to say and to being sleepy.  This is the challenge with creative work and making writing or art your priority; it seems like you have to do it everyday, even if everyday does not produce something that you consider *worthy* My NPR stream has been down, so I have been enjoying music from this website. 

The online dating adventures continue to teach me.  I am learning how e-mail and writing can be good to learn about what people think are important to learn about folks, besides physical appearance. I am also figuring it how to ask questions that are informative and intriguing.  This weekend, I am having my first *date* which comes from this experience.  The guy lives in MD and I do not want to deal with my family's interference, so I am actually going to be "sneaking out." It feels dumb to have to lie to my parents about what I am doing, but I would rather be a liar than be interrogated. Plus, all this sneaking about is kind of exciting.   If you think of it, please send good luck vibes on Saturday night.   I have also been trying to practice not worrying about being found attractive (since he has already seen my pictures) and instead just focusing on having fun.  It is hard to not get caught up in our insecurities, but it is good to practice embracing our best selves.