Beastmomma

Relationship with Parents:

I would like to have more conversations about things other than my marriage or getting a list of people I need to call to wish Happy Birthday or give condolences.  I would like to do more than listen to the run down of events from babies to houses to engagements to scandals of people in their community. With my dad, I would like us to share a passion for something together instead of each of us trying to convince the other of the importance of being a Democrat or the pros and cons of various cell phone plans.  With my mother, I would like to feel more engaged and sympathetic when she goes about her stress and sorrow.  I would like to tell her that she needs a better framework and a paradigm shift.  Instead, I find myself saying "You need a break-- come visit" and secretly hoping that I do not end up like her.  I feel guilty for judging their life and would like to be at peace with the feeling that I want something different.

 

LSAT:

I want closure and not to feel stupid. The test has made me cry and question my intelligence much more than is appropriate. I would like to fully release it by either taking it again or just closing the door and not looking back.  I feel humiliated by my result and would like that to change.  If I go to law school,  I do not want to have the nagging feeling that my life would have been better if I had scored higher.  If I take it again, I do not want to be nervous. I am tired of tests intimidating me and holding so much of my future hostage.

 

Leadership Institute:

I would like to be respected and regarded as powerful and brilliant.  I would like to be able to tell someone whose views I find despicable that I think they are full of hate and shit and should have to really live with the consequences of the laws they pass in a manner that will still allow me to be well liked.  I would like to be able to listen well enough that I can understand others viewpoints, but still articulate and speak with enough passion that I can get my viewpoint across. By going through this course, I hope to feel empowered to participate more fully in the political process and less frightened by all the things I do not know or feel like I need to learn in order to do more.