Beastmomma

Happy Halloween.  I celebrated by writing a bioethics paper on ethical issues raised by genetic testing of embryos.  The professor made up for it by giving us candy and telling extra funny jokes.

The last few nights, I have had some crazy dreams about being back at Duke.  The dreams started the day that I spoke to the gentleman who sent me this e-mail. The conversation itself was fine. I was surprised to learn two things: (1) That there are many things I DO LIKE about crazy boss and (2) I really did put a lot of effort into making my relationship with her work.  I did get a small bit of pleasure in hearing that her behavior is consistent across many people who have worked with her.  Also, I felt guilty for talking badly about her.  I have made an effort to close the door on the experience and not think about the negative aspects of it very much.

Turns out that my instincts were correct because since I was talking and thinking critically about my experience with crazy boss, I have started to feel slightly anxious. I know that she is not part of my daily life anymore and has no say in my quality of life.  Yet, my subconscious seems to not be convinced.  The dreams have me feeling anxious and trapped in much the same way I did after various interactions with her.

Hopefully, the dreams will go away soon.  I will make that my Halloween wish.