Beastmomma

"I was waiting for such a long time, she said. I thought you forgot. It's hard to forget, I said, when there is such an empty space when you are gone. " ~ Story People by Brian Andreas.

Dear Apartment:

As much as I enjoy being here by myself, I also like having company.  Sometimes during the visits, I find myself feeling nervous or self-conscious about my living habits.  I feel glad that you do not pass judgment on me when I do not always put things away immediately or when I walk around all day in my pajamas.  Sometimes, I imagine that you chuckle at my "good behavior" when other people are around.  All of a sudden, I become a woman who eats breakfast with ease or puts everything away as soon as she walks into the room. 

This weekend, I was so glad to have a Visitor here.  The semester is coming to an end and my self-esteem always goes down at this time of year.  Often, I wonder if I am good enough to excel in law school.  Over the weekend, I put those thoughts at bay and worked on other things.  It was so nice to have you feel cramped for the shore term.  When I returned from the airport, you felt huge.  I am sure that soon enough you will be filled with manifestations of my stress.

Yours truly,

Beastmomma