Beastmomma

This will be short since I am in an awkward position in order to keep my foot off the ground and my mother said that I could only have a few minutes.  Keeping secrets while on narcotics is hard! First of all, I wanted to THANK you so much for your good thoughts and vibes.  The surgery went fairly well and recovery has been much slower than anticipated.  Secondly, these are the events so far.  I had a cathater (sp?) in when I left the hospital on Tuesday which was numbing my leg. It came out on Wed and oh my goodness, the pain was so intense! I was crying and crying.  Fortunately, I got some stronger medicine which certianly helped to move things along.  I have been on bed rest for the past week which means that I have to be flat on my back, only rising to use the restroom.  The medicine is really strong and helps me be in a constant state of napping all day long.  This is the second day where I can sit up a bit and I am trying not to push my luck.

My mother has been a champ in terms of cooking and being patient.  She held me hand when I cried and tried to cheer me up.  She even filed some of the papers I had piled on the desk.  My apeppitite is not fully back, but she has been patiently making these wonderful tasting meals.  Things have gotten a little tense as she has come close to discovering the true nature of my relationship with *Sunday* who has been to visit.  I also get agigitated with her constant quest to clean and organize things.  The highlights of my day are usually bathing whether it is a chair shower or a sponge and having Beth talk with me while she eats dinner.  I also really like getting visitors and phone calls.  Strangely enough, I do feel lonely and a bit sad.  I am concerned about not being able to return to work as scheduled,but I am trying to take it all in stride.  I have enough leave saved up, that I could use it if needed.

The other surprise of last week was that my father came on Valentine's day which was the day I returned from the hospital.  He brought flowers for my mom, Beth,and me along with chocolate.  I was glad that he could help out because my mother and I did not get any sleep the night before.  He returns tomorrow for another week of fun.  

The updates on the secrets:

1. As far as I know she has no knowledge of the blog.  I have missed being in this space, but I cannot say "I want to update the blog" Hopefully as a I get better, I will be able to update more frequently.

2. *Sunday* came to visit in the hospital and brought flowers. Unfortunately, we could not keep the flowers in the room.  I did get to enjoy them here along with the plant that Sandi and Brian brought.   As an aside, I also got flowers delivered from Regina and her fiance.  *Sunday* came to visit for a bit on Friday afternoon and we snuck a kiss while my mom was in the kitchen with Beth.  I am wanting him to call and visit more, but I have to be patient and let him be proactive.

3. Therapy. I have not heard from my therapist yet, so this is not a concern.

I believe that is all the news that I have to report for now. I am sure that I am forgetting things.  Please keep coming to visit and call.  If I did not mention you specifically please know that I deeply appreciate everything you do, I just have heavy drugs that make me forget things.  Stay in touch!

My mother arrived LATE today. She got in about 7pm, but I was so glad to have her here that I was not too upset about the delay. I managed to make recipe number 11 which is Mexican Pumpkin soup.  Beth, Corrie, and Joe got most of it.  I cleaned out the closet which gave me lots of bags full of things to donate.  I cleaned my bathroom and changed my sheets.   Unfortunately, I could not go through all the piles of things, so that will remain for tomorrow.  I got lots of good wishes and encouraging thoughts.  I drank a lot of water to help my veins not be so hard to get a needle into and I finished all my laundry. 

Now my mother is brushing her teeth. I only have 45 minutes before I have to officially begin fasting. It certainly feels like the 11th hour. This time when you are alone with your thoughts and find yourself hoping that the things you are wishing on really are stars and not misplaced planets. That all the decisions you made were the right ones and on and on.  You also feel braver to ask AGAIN for good thoughts and vibes. The thoughts being courage for me and good skills to my surgeons. Patience and kindess to my mother.  Thankfulness to all of you who treat me so well.

I forgot to get someone to write an entry that says I came through surgery okay. I imagine that some of the local peeps will be in touch with me tomorrow and I will ask them to post something in the comments.

Meanwhile may your sleep be good and my your feet take you to wonderful places.

There is severe weather all along the east coast. 

Maryland is part of the east coast.

My mother is flying in from MD.

Severe weather may cause her flight to get canceled.

She asked me to get back up which I did in the form of Reshma. The one thing that I fear more then spending a month with her is not having her with me when I go in for surgery.

Come on Southwest-- bring me my momma!