Beastmomma

I just finished my reading for tomorrow! Before going to bed, I thought that I would welcome in April by starting on my blogging challenge.

 The theme for April is letters, so I will begin with this simple one.

Dear Law School:

You constantly test and challenge me. I am being pulled in many different directions and my ability to cope is constantly evaluated.  While I am frequently frustrated by you, I do hope that we can eventually become friends or at least not be mortal enemies.

I was pretty tired from my late night yesterday and today I cranked out another paper.  I still have to read 16 pages for tomorrow.  However, I still had a big smile on my face because I used my new lunchbox.  I wrote about my find a few days ago.  I was so excited about the lunchbox that I used it for both lunch and dinner; first of all, I was truly amazed with how much food could fit into the compartments. I thought about taking a picture and posting it, but I restrained myself because I think I have used up all of my dork points.

I just turned in my paper that is due tomorrow.  E-mail is such an exciting tool because you can turn things in without worrying that someone will be in the office.  This was a hard one for me to crank out because I was having such a hard time being motivated.  Last year, I was so afraid of failing. My feelings of unworthiness permeated all of my class performance.  This year, I still have fear but it is that I will have wasted all this effort for a crap shoot.  This particular class makes me feel like crap about two things which are critical to my identity: my ability to think and my capacity to write well.  Feeling like crap about myself is not something I enjoy; this contributes to my HORRIBLE procrastination on starting the assignments earlier.  Any ideas for how to get out of this slump are welcome!