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In case you did not notice, the New Orleans Saints won the Superbowl on Sunday.  I was studying and talking with non-conformist, so I did not follow the game too closely.  Fortunately, Partner was giving me updates!  Even though I am not a huge fan of football, I felt so happy that New Orleans had a victory. 

It may sound strange that I feel happy and hopeful about passing the bar with the Saints' victory.  They had never one a superbowl and I (embarrassed as I am to admit it) have never aced a standardized exam.  Here's hoping that the end of one losing streak will lead to another.

I just took a simulated bar exam for the multiple choice portion of the test.  Even though my score went up to a whooping 50% which is much improved from my stellar 13% from the first time I took the exam, I am still pretty scared.  I need to raise my score by 15 percentage point in two weeks.  During the exam, I felt nervous and pretty exhausted.  My anxiety dreams stick with me in a very powerful way.  When I am taking the actual test, a weird blend of exhaustion and fear seems to help the right answer escape from my grasp.

Fortunately, between now and the real bar exam, I have many more practice problems and memorization at my disposal.  Maybe by the time the exam arrives, I will be so tired that my sleep will again be restorative and I can do well enough on the exam to be average and pass!!!!

And...here we go!

1. I know I am not stupid, but preparing for the bar sure makes me question my intelligence.
2. February is not  the longest month.
3. You can't help but wonder if you will ever feel warm temperatures again.
4. Once I have studied more, hopefully I will be ready for the bar; bring it on!
5. Where have you looked for inspiration and hope?
6. Self-doubt and loathing is now available.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to trying a new dining establishment with Partner and his sister, tomorrow my plans include SEEING DUDE  and Sunday, I want to crank out at least two practice essays!