Beastmomma

Another week that went at lightening speed which is surprising given how exhausted I feel.  Today, the Little Lady and I went to a Mother's Day tea at her day care.  It was really fun! Even though I am surprised that Mothers Day "applies" to me this year, I feel so happy and excited.  My responses below will probably be very parenthood centric. Hope that you had a good week and that your weekend is super fun!

First, I wanted to let you know that I participated in a TLC book tour.  It was a lot of fun. The book I reviewed is Narcopolis.  You can find my review here.  I would love comments on that post! 

Second, I found out almost two weeks ago that I did not pass the bar exam.  I am not surprised, but I feel incredibly disappointed.  My initial response was to cry for awhile. When I finally looked at the score report, I realized that I was very close! This stung even more.  During the essay portion of the exam, I ran out of time. My score on that particular essay was low.  If I had just had 10 more minutes, I think I could have passed.  

We need a second income and I need a break from feeling like shit because I am not a good standardized test taker.  For the immediate future, I am going to search for policy and public health jobs for which a JD is required or preferred, but passing the bar is not.  Hopefully, I will find something soon which is a good match for my professional interests, personality, and life priorities. 

Third, the Little Lady has been blowing our minds lately with her social skills. She started day care the last week of April.  I was nervous about how she would respond, but she seems to be LOVING it! When I pick her up, she is in a good mood. Her teachers tell me that she is cute, sweet, and smart.  I like having time to get some other things done.  I think the break from each other has helped our relationship.  Yesterday, Partner went with me to drop her off.  When we were leaving, he kept telling me not to cry.  I was fine.  Then, I realized that he was crying.  It was so sweet, but I still could not resist making fun of him just a little :)  He has given me multiple lectures on being strong and not calling to check on her every ten minutes, so I needed to pay him back a bit. 

Finally, over the past three weeks, our Little Lady has been sick.  We think she has a virus which has caused an increase in poop, ear infection, and most recently hives. We have been challenged with giving her medicine. She is not so agreeable to taking some of the items.  Fortunately, we finished her antibiotics yesterday.  Thankfully, she is in good spirits.  I feel stressed that she is feeling ill, but I am glad that she is not showing any signs of distress. You really do have your heart walking around outside your body when you become a parent :) 

I sent in a job application this week which felt pretty good.  The Little Lady started day care which is going well (so far).  She seems happy and is doing a lot of fun activities.  When I dropped her off, I felt sad.  Six hours felt like a long time.  When I got home and started cranking things out, the time flew by.  For now, she is only going two days a week for six hour stretches. I like having the chunk of time to devote to job searching. 

Now to the Friday Fill-In Responses: 

1. Ah, me...time seems to go so much faster when you become a parent.
2. Figuring out how to balance everything is what's on my mind most lately.
3. When I talk to my best friend, I feel so much better! 
4. Trusting the Universe is what's working for me lately.
5. I recently saw a bunny outside.
6. Looking in the mirror and seeing the Little Lady, Partner, and my reflection together in the mirror fills me with joy!
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to going out to dinner, tomorrow my plans include packing for NYC and Sunday, I want to feel good about a short getaway!